I'm no Mark D Chapman, but....

I feel that I'm pretty similiar to Holden Caulfield (main character of catcher in the Rye). I got to thinking about it. And am now deciding to write it down. obviously he is only a fictional character, but I'm going to speak of him as an actual person. here goes. We both hate cheesiness. Can't stand phony people, people that don't really care about you but pretend they do. We are both always having "great" ideas that never happen. A lot of things both of us do are spur of the moment just cause i feel like it kind of things. We both enjoy flying solo, doing our own thing. we fall in love way too easy. Holden doesn't seem to really know where he's going. like with his future. Certainly I don't know that either (least at this point). hopefully I'm not as self centered as him though. but i suppose I'll leave that up to you to decide

Child Abuse

I must say I haven't written in quite a while. thought about it a few times. then decided I didn't want to write about this or that. however, I am writing today to talk about how sick child abuse makes me. How can anyone be so fucked up that they start harming children? either sexually, emotionally, or physically. There is an evil so foul upon this earth, an evil that resides all over. I decided to look up the statistics of child abuse. Every 10 seconds there is a report of child abuse. 5 children every day die from some form of child abuse. Over 60% of people in drug rehabilitation centers report being abused or neglected as a child. Abused children are 25% more likely to experience teen pregnancy. Children who experience child abuse & neglect are 59% more likely to be arrested as a juvenile, 28% more likely to be arrested as an adult, and 30% more likely to commit violent crime. And thats only in the U.S.! There is currently a documentary out about child abuse in the Catholic church. its called "Deliver us from Evil". I recommend watching it. Another problem is a large portion of children who are or have been abused never admit it, because they are so terrified of the consequences. They day I turn 18, I plan to somehow get a motorcycle and join the motorcycle gang "Bikers Against Child Abuse". I think its an amazing group. you should all go to this website and read what they are about. at least scroll down and read the 4 levels of intervention.

http://bacaworld.org/about/mission/

Un Healthy

I'm honestly convinced that school is driving me to be mentally mad. I can't think straight anymore, I'm sick of everyone. The only thing i really want to do anymore is just play my organs. when I try to do homework its hard to stay focused (never really had that problem before). I just want to be completely alone with no one around to bug me, to do my own thing. School and Homework I believe to be the main factors of these awful changes. More so Homework because there are a million other things i could be doing at home but yet i have to sit here and do bloody homework all day long so I don't fail life.

best buds

I think I'd get along quite well with Tom Waits, Jim Morrison, Andy Warhol, John Lennon, all members of the Grateful Dead, Ken Kesey, Johnny Depp, Jorma Kaukonen and Hunter S Thompson. We'd just be crazy all the time. Eccentric freaks just doing our own thing. loads of parties, strange times, good fun. but then again I get along well with most everyone

D.I.

that place just depresses the hell out of me. Seeing homeless people walking around the store and such. Occasionally you can find some really good stuff, but there is also a lot of junk. I always get this awful vibe when I go to D.I. don't know what it is, but I try and get out of there as fast as possible.

Cursed!

I honestly believe I'm cursed. at least as far as my love life goes. just as soon as I decide I don't care about liking anyone, some girl has to come along and catch my eye. But I never manage to make it any farther than flirting. Why?! I usually just get put in the friend category, which isn't bad, but still. Maybe its cause I'm not a douche bag. cause I sure know a lot of douche bags that have girls crawlin' all over them. Another things that usually turns out to cause problems is I'm really open about almost everything. Pretty sure I've told every girl I've liked, that I like them, (except maybe 1 or 2) all throughout my life. Currently I'm in the not caring too much stage. But none the less, I truly am cursed!

New Years Resolutions

1. Learn how to play the Organ
2. be in a band
3. go on more Photo shoots than this year
4. make new friends (which I always do)
5. graduate early
6. hopefully take a road trip somewhere
7. get a girlfriend
8. perform at a concert
9. try many new things
10. be more social
11. figure out what i want to do with my life
12. do some crazy stuff
13. become a better person in general
14. realize that its actually a month away from the new year, before i write this

those are the ones i can think of at the moment. not in any specific order or importance though. we'll see how many i actually get done

Optimisticality

I've been an optimist for as long as i can remember. not the kind of "glass is half full" optimist, but the "at least I have a glass kind". Not a cheesy optimist, but a realistic one. no matter how hard I try to stay angry or sad or whatever, It never lasts long. even in the most intense situations. such as: thinking I'm going to die while ice climbing, then I think "at least I won't have to hike out of here, or its a cool way to go". I mean I've accepted the fact that I'm going to die sometime so why worry about it? No matter how bad things have ever gotten I always find something to laugh and be optimistic about.