a Bottle of Stirred Insanity Spiked with a Hint of Fear

recently I stumbled upon the question "what have I been doing my whole life?" unfortunately I haven't yet stumbled upon an answer. Certainly I've done many fun/crazy/exciting things. What career should I pursue? what will the world be like in 10 years? How many of my current friends will I still talk to? hopefully all or at least most of them! Sitting in church today I realized I don't know these people, even though I've gone to the same ward my whole life. And Quite frankly I don't really care. I really don't have anything in common with these people, besides where we live and attend church. Sitting here even now, I just came to the discoverey that I don't have much in common with most my relatives either. extended relatives that is, aunts, uncles, cousins. Specifically on my moms side. Other than some person ages ago deciding there was a group of people called a family, and that we all have to get together and hang out, I would never spend time with these people. Not saying I'm ungrateful to have them, just that we have nothing besides history in common.